Obligatory "how's my driving" post. Let me know how I'm playing Bella. Am I doing it right? Am I horribly off-base? Good criticism is what I need~



Also, I know this is late to be adding to my journal, but its here now and always available.

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Logs are newest to oldest in display.

All logs will be numbered with a roman numeral (ie. I, II, III, IV, V)

Everything from before this post is to be ignored and is from old canon at DDD. Everything past this post is new canon at DDD.

Before = Bella through Breaking Dawn

After = Bella in New Moon.


Note it. Don't forget it.

You ever have one of those days where it all sort of hits you...

... I miss him a lot. Even if my memories of him are a little fuzzy.... I don't want to forget him.

NESSIE! HE CALLS MY DAUGHTER NESSIE!

Calm... control... relax... You're not going to kill him

The hunt went well and I am able to withstand such a close proximity with my daughter. Its strange, but I can resist human blood it seems. At least, in certain situations. There were humans when I was hunting and I left them alone. Everyone agrees that that's strange, but it made sense to me. What if I had known those humans?

Jacob.... the... dog is lucky to be alive. How dare he imprint on my baby! My new little girl, my precious daughter! I...

Breathe.

Edward and I have been given a cottage away from the house with a room for the baby as well. A place we can live as a family for a time. Its perfect.

the baby is getting stronger by the day... it took us awhile to find out what will sustain him but we finally got it.

heh... my first act as a vampire...

he's so strong already and he's always growing. he broke one of my ribs yesterday. poor child, he's so cramped in there. carlisle doesn't expect my pregnancy to last much longer. just so long as the baby's safe i don't mind.

I've been feeling sort of sick lately.... Probably doesn't help that Edward drags me all over this island and I'm exhausted by the time we get back.

Not to mention my nightmares here... I think its the island, but they're so much more vivid. So bright and clear. Its so strange...

First.... weird virus.


Second...... I think I may be willing to stay human a little while longer...

Stealing from Cross now.

Ask me any question, anything at all(ask anonymously if you wish). And I will try my best to answer with honesty.

Four more days.....

... I really need to stop counting down for my health.

Edward. Come keep me company, please.

... A little more than a week...


...



Cross, Klaud... I should spend this time at home.

.... Wedding's soon....

Cross how long am I going to be here? And why?

You do know I have a wedding coming up soon.

Not to mention this is all getting a little too conflicting now.

Alice... I'll be back in a few days. Tell Edward I'm fine and let Charlie know everything's okay and all.

[Locked to Debitt]
Debitt. Can we talk?
[/Locked]

Bella's journal has been updated and refreshed. Her layout is new and her profile changed. Her RL's will go up in there as soon as I can make the time to organize them.


The other update is what I mentioned in my Jacky journal.

I added the three posts every journal of mine has; Set-up, Contact, and Concrit. So now there's a way to reach me if you really can't find me at all, but I'm everywhere really. Please let me know what you think if you're having problems with me or any of my muses guys.

Bella wasn't really sure what exactly Cross wanted from her. She had posted saying she was trying to get back home when he told her to come to the Dark Order Headquarters. It had taken her awhile, but she finally figured out how to get there. She had some time to spare anyways. Alice knew where she was so she didn't have to worry about getting home too quickly. Hopefully Alice was back to normal as well and could cover for her for a little longer with her dad. It was only Charlie Bella had to worry about.

Standing outside the huge Headquarters Bella wondered how the hell she was supposed to get in. Where was the door? She guessed Cross would show up any minute to deal with her, whatever it was he wanted. So instead, she settled for calling out to see if he, or anyone for that matter, was around.

"Hello?"

( ...... )


.....

That's not exactly how it happened...

But....

How did this get on here?

I'm getting married in less than two months now.

In less than two months, I'm going to be a vampire.

I hate weddings and I'm afraid of becoming of a vampire. I'm afraid of what's going to happen in the future. I've got a flashy car that makes people stare everywhere I go. My fiancé somehow got me into an Ivy League college with a lot of money probably and I've got a shiny new credit card with probably no limits on it.

My best friend, whom I also happen to be in love with just not as in love with as I am with Edward, has run off to northern Canada and refuses to even change back into a human again. Volturi is still a constant threat.

I don't know when I'll speak with my family and friends after the wedding.

And I don't care.

I just want to get married and live happily ever after.

None of that bothers me even a little bit. Things will work out just nicely.

Its official... my baby is dead. And I don't think she'll be coming back this time. Jacob's not even here to take a look at her... I doubt he would if he was here anyways.... I just want him to come home... its been so long already...

Of course, Edward took advantage of my baby's death to buy me a new car. He finally talked me into it... and I think I'm about to go insane with this thing. This thing hasn't even been released in the US yet... I don't want to know how much money the Cullens have. It scares me. Like the fact that he also gave me a credit card that seems to have no limit...

( Anyways... this is how it looks... )

Can you say 'conspicuous'? People keep staring at me as I drive! I'm going insane....

Not to mention the Ivy League college I got accepted to... I really don't need all of this. I wish he would stop with it, really...